You think this is insanity?

Think again.

Try standing on the ledge of a roof

shingles, slippery
squares

your feet slipping

never letting yourself REALLY fall

but you know this isn't normal.

Everyone thinks you're something else
beyond what you even pretend you are
but all you remember
is that rooftrop
especially when you try to sleep

Maybe you didn't die
but you wanted it
and that's close enough
to you.

Maybe you saved yourself
under pressure
but the You
inside your Head
wants to die
whether the "you"
inside your body
lets it happen or not.