I want to feel full.
To feel whole, like I used to.
There's an emptiness, fear and anxiety there...even the best possible future I could dream up scares the shit out of me. Nothing feels right; no matter what hypothetical scenario I place myself in, it feels foreign and useless. "What's the point?"
I hate being so lifeless when I have the potential for so much passion and energy. My soul needs a little dose of spiritual B12.
Or, it would...y'know, if I believed I had a "soul."